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Update

Hello to all. I am sorry I haven't posted in a while. It has been rather busy as you all probably know by now. I am posting some pics from this past weekend at mom and dad's. Garett, Elaina and I made a gingerbread house and then mom and Elaina worked on Christmas cookies. Also, I retrieved some pics off of mom's camera of her trip to see Chris, Tammy and the other 4 kiddos.

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Thanksgiving

I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving. I am posting some pics from the weekend before Thanksgiving when the children were all at Gran and Big Daddy's. I didn't get to have Garett and Elaina for Thanksgiving or my birthday so I was bummed. Mom, dad, Tammy, Chris, and the kids all came over for the weekend and we had a good visit. Now on to finish Christmas shopping.

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getting ready

Well I have been trying to get ready for the upcoming holidays. Usually decorating for Christmas is great fun so I have already started that and finished this weekend most of it. I have 3 trees up along with the knick knacks but still can't get into the holiday spirit to much. I miss my kids! I wanted to post some most recent pics. Before and after and you can see a drastic change in Garett especially. Please keep him in your prayers. I worry about them both so much. Brandon will be coming next Wednesday so I am looking forward to visiting with him.

need to vent

I am just a little upset these days. Since June Garett has gained 85 lbs. He is now making C's and D's for the first time in his life. Elaina is very hyper and can't seem to calm down. I fail to see how this is in the best interest of my children. Especially after what all they tell me they are feeling on my visits with them. It hurts so much to see your babies hurting and there is nothing in the world you can do about it because you are controlled by other people who "know" what is best for your children. I also fail to see how it is that unless I have medicaid or some public service I can not get appointments for my children with health providers. Since Scott and I do work and do have insurance we are actually punished for this. AAAGGGGHHHHHH!!!!! I am hoping this blogging thing helps my efforts in venting. In the meantime please keep my travel to Texarkana, Hope and back tomorrow in your prayers. I will be meeting with the guardian ad litem "attorney for the children" and then picking them up to bring them back for another appt. in Helena. Mom and dad will be taking them back Wed. Also, keep Tammy and Chris is mind. They are on pins and needles for the finalization of the adoption of the 4 little ones. I am hoping that it works out for them.