need to vent

I am just a little upset these days. Since June Garett has gained 85 lbs. He is now making C's and D's for the first time in his life. Elaina is very hyper and can't seem to calm down. I fail to see how this is in the best interest of my children. Especially after what all they tell me they are feeling on my visits with them. It hurts so much to see your babies hurting and there is nothing in the world you can do about it because you are controlled by other people who "know" what is best for your children. I also fail to see how it is that unless I have medicaid or some public service I can not get appointments for my children with health providers. Since Scott and I do work and do have insurance we are actually punished for this. AAAGGGGHHHHHH!!!!! I am hoping this blogging thing helps my efforts in venting. In the meantime please keep my travel to Texarkana, Hope and back tomorrow in your prayers. I will be meeting with the guardian ad litem "attorney for the children" and then picking them up to bring them back for another appt. in Helena. Mom and dad will be taking them back Wed. Also, keep Tammy and Chris is mind. They are on pins and needles for the finalization of the adoption of the 4 little ones. I am hoping that it works out for them.